Welcome to Holland
By Emily Pearl Kingsley


I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a
disability to try to help people who have not shared that unique
experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like
this:

When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous
vacation trip to Italy. You buy a bunch of guidebooks and make your
wonderful plans... the Coliseum, Michelangelo's David, the gondolas
of Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very
exciting.

After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack
your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The
stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."

"Holland?!", you say. "what do you mean Holland? I signed up for
Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life, I've dreamed of
going to Italy!"

The stewardess replies, "There's been a change in the flight plan.
We've landed in Holland and it is here you must stay."

The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible,
disgusting, filthy place full of pestilence, famine and disease. It
is just a different place. So, you must go and buy new guidebooks.
You must learn a whole new language. You will meet a whole new group
of people you would never had met. It is just a different place. It
is slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy, but after you
have been there while and you catch your breath, you look around and
you begin to notice that Holland has windmills, Holland has tulips,
Holland even has Rembrandt. But everyone you know is busy coming and
going from Italy and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time
they had there. And for the rest of your life you will say, "Yes,
that's where I was supposed to go. That is what I had planned."

The pain of that will never, ever, ever go away because the loss of
that dream is a very significant loss. But if you spend your life
mourning the fact that you didn't go to Italy, you may never be free
to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things about Holland.